Have you ever had one of those moments where you realized that what you want is so not where you are? When you look at your life and you think to yourself, "how did I get here?" I just had one.

Have you ever looked at something and thought, "man, that's going to cause me pain and heartbreak. It's going to require repentance and discipline, and not just one time. Probably more than I care to know?"

Have you ever stared that straight in the face and realized that brokenness leads to wonder, pain leads to pure joy and repentance and discipline leads to humility? And then, as you step back and look even closer, you realize that heartbreak is not over what you give up, but what you've already missed out on in your own arrogance.

But we rest on grace.......... that alone makes it bearable, but it will not ease my pain, for I know what I've missed. This isn't a beat up on myself, but it is a refreshingly honest look at my life. Praise God for His word.