What is readiness? I found myself at home tonight watching hope for haiti now with my wife and seeing kid after kid on my t.v and then hearing that even before the earthquake, orphanages in Haiti turned away 80 kids a month.... or 2.3 a day for those who don't like math.... devestating numbers.... I sat there and thought out loud, "we should adopt a kid from Haiti." Our collective response was to say we weren't ready.
The point of this post is not to debate whether or not I'm getting a child... It's readiness. What is it? Is it a choice? A state of being? A moment where everything clicks and feels right? Or is that just what I want it to be? Where has the life of faith gone? Where has dependency on Christ gone? Where has the willingness to trust that God will provide for His little ones gone? Why are there so many questions in a row that I don't have the answers to? Instead I sit here, pondering, hoping that somewhere in the middle of these troubling questions I find justification for the way things are.
When I say I'm ready, it often looks like I've worked out in my brain all the available scenarios for a given choice that I will make and they work out acceptable to me. Since when was that the governing factor for my life?
What does being ready look like to you? I believe there is wisdom in readiness. I also believe that God asks us to trust Him for wisdom. I'm troubled..... cause I don't know if I'm ready. I don't know if that really matters.
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